Thinkking to go back ,
coz they say they miss me , iie dont believe it
but iie dontknow why iie got a feeling to go back.
but if iie go back , they will hate me more.
iie now really veryy confuse..
iie dontknow iie want to go back or remain M.I.A
really dontknow , iie dontwant all this stress..
iie hope can iie can throw all this stress away
and the only way is sleep and neverr wake up.
or iie jump out from the window?
or maybe go to the highest floor to jump?
or use penknifes to slash me hand?
or even slash me neck?
really dontknow..iie really got a feeling to go back.
coz by hearing tt , my heart feels..
dontknow how to say how it feels , but it just feel qiqi guaiguai..
and iie also feels another way ,
if iie go back , they will hate me more coz iie already ge da men make hen duo mafan le.
so iie go back will make they hate me.
and now Elli more worst le , izzit coz of me??
iie thinkk no barh , iie thinkk she wont do this kind of thinggs coz of me barh.
now is 3:57 am , 13 dec , Sunday..
and she told me tt she is pumping..
iie was thinkking tt she is bluffing or real ,
but iie listen her voice lyke real coz her voice lyke seh seh de.
really dontknow le la. Going to sleep le.
and dontwant to say this thinggs aniimore le.


Jiu post till here barh.
Hope Elli can be more guai.
and not more and more bad.
pray to god , coz her PSLE is next year.
buhbuaii peepoos , nitenitex !!