So, tsunami was fake. There isnt any tsunami this morning.

I didnt die in my sleep.

Today morning went to meet Emily for mac breakfast.

I saw you. We texted for awhile, and you didnt reply.

I guess is you fall asleep right? But why didnt you reply after you woke up?

Whatever, its okay. I got no rights to say anything.

Its your choice to choose whether or not to reply me.

Since you choose not to, i shall not force you to.

I doesnt wants you to hate me more, ;')

Today is Friday the 13th. 1 more day to 14th.

Remember whats 14th? Its our anniversary. If we are still together.

I got this lame thing with Emily, saying that every 7th and 14th,

i buy things for you. And every 14th and 26th, she buys for Peanut.

Till the day both of you come back to our side.

If there's not even a single chance that both of you would come back,

we will either burn those things, throw those things or keep it.

So, for the first 7th, i got you a bracelet. With your name on it.

Its kinda cool, but i guess you wont have the chance to wear it, right?

And for the first 14th, and that's our 1st month, and white day.

I made you cookies. A big 'W'. 3 hearts with K <3 W. And a big circle,

with 'BendanOctopus, happy 1st month, happy white day. I love you. :')'

I ate away the K <3 W. But i kept the big circle and big 'W'.

But the sad thing is, it broke. But its still with me. I didnt throw away.

Cause i didnt want to throw away our memories, our love. I didnt want to throw away,

you. I want you to be with me forever, even though i know its impossible,

but you will always stays in my heart, i swear. :')

The second 7th, i got you a stupid thing. You know those paintings?

Yeah, i paint a mickey and minnie holding a heart.

Its rather stupid, but as usual, whatever thing is related to you,

to me, is everything. Can put a photo between it too.

Tmr will be the second 14th. Im getting you a more lame things.

I know you wont be able to read or see whatever i've written here.

But its okay, i know jiu can le. (';

I planned to do a board. Writing things we did, dates and everything.

Most of all, our second monthsary.

I know we've broken up, i know i mean nothing to you.

I know we werent friends anymore, but i hope you would still let me love me.

I hope you would let me do all this stupid things,

Remember on Valentine's Day i gave you the present? And those pictures?

I wonder where are they now. Isit still in your room, your desk?

Is the pictures still in your wallet? Or have you thrown away all of them alr?

I dont know. Today got sintua, im thinking will you be coming later on?

A part of me wants you to come, but a part of me doesnt.

I really cannot face you anymore, seeing you being close with her.

I had enough, sometimes. I just feel like being blind, being deaf.

So i can dont see whatever i dont wanna see, i can dont hear whatever i dont wanna hear.

I can dont see you honging girls, talking to girls, adding girls.

I can dont hear all those laughters from you and other girls.

We used to be like this once, those girls used to be me.

But now, everything passes. Everything changes.

I hate it when people asked me, 'Hey, do you know him?'

Cause my answer will be like 'Used to.'

Why do i have to become your past? Cant i stay in your present, and even future?

Is this what my life have to be? I dont know. And i dont wish to know.

Cause i had enough of hurt. I had enough of everything.

Im tired, i just want to stop caring. But you know? Its hard.

Im sick of crying, tired of trying.

Im sick and tired of being sick and tired.

I had endure enough, i just wanna mia from all this things. Forget everything.

Even better, d-i-e.