Rant

So yeah hai. I'm here to rant. Not going to rant at twitter if not people is going to say I lame. So yeah. If you came here by accident and is going to read this blog post, i suggest you not to read. if anything happens its not my fault. I know I suck as being a sister. I can't advice. I can't help when you need help. I make things worst and worst. Just one word la k, I suck la. Suck. I just simply suck la k. I can't do anything to help. I suck I suck. But you can't blame me for being suck right? This Is me. You can choose others to be your sisters, maybe they don't suck. Maybe they can give advice. But I just can't la k. It's either you change your thinking or you change away me. That's all I can say. Yeah, quotes that are saying; it's not about who knew you longer, it's about who came in and never left. But since whatever I do or say irritates you, why not just change me away? I don't understand seriously. I mind not being your sister, but if this is better for you, why not? I don't want Kenna attitude at for nothing leh seriously. I mean it's not that I don't wanna listen to what happened to you and your boy. It's just that I don't give a fucking damn to him. To him. It's like how you don't wanna know what happened to zhong, it's the same thing you know? I don't know what is the reason why you don't wanna know about zhong's thing. But here's my reason why I dislike John. Maybe not dislike, just don't wanna know anything about him or even hear he's name. It's because, who would like to know that your sister is being in a very sad situation but you can't help. But you ask her to leave him , but she just stays? Who would like to know that your sister is still with the guy who hurt her over and over again? No one right? I know it might be hard to leave as you both goes thru alot and being together for quite some time, but everything needs time isn't it? But if you still thinks that he is the one for you. He's your future, your everything. You love him alot, I can't stop you also. That's all I wanna say la, if I'm not the one who made you angry and I did totally nothing? Don't come and attitude me when I can't do a little small thing for you only. What I don't understand? Is that you say you have school, and payments need to be in by morning. You can go make payment what, what's wrong? And when I decided to help you, you say lj things. Its not i dont want help you leh seriously. dont knn at twitter ljw leh. Seriously la, how about think of putting yourself in my shoe first and say something? You don't think before you say, always. Your words is always straight and harsh, I try to understand and tolerate. And yes, I know I got attitude problems and a fucked up face. But please, if I'm trying to change why can't you? I didn't say doesn't means I don't give a damn okay. If I'm silence doesn't means you can always like that okay. I cherish you, I don't wanna lose you like I lose my ex-sisters. That's why. So please, think about it. But if you can't see that I'm trying my best? Then that okay. Maybe I didn't put enough effort, or I just suck. Hah.