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Hai Wim. I just watched finish a Thailand show call; 初戀這件小事. This movie was Gracey who recommend me to watch. So I was bored and went to watch. It's a very sweet and sad Thailand show. It was about a girl who is very ugly in the first place, she fell in love with a guy. She wants to get attention from that guy, so she tries her very best, do whatever she can do to change herself. Improve her grades. And one day, she really did it. She become very pretty, and is the top student in the school. The boy fells in love with her too, but he kept silence because he had this long brotherhood, he's brother love that girl too. He didn't want his brother to like have a heartbreak, and he promise the brother not to snatch her with him. So he didn't say a single thing. Till the very last day of school, people graduate. The girl confessed to the guy, but then the guy was with another girl. So the girl got really upset, but she hold her tears back. She wished him goodluck, last forever. She dropped in the pool, but then stand up and running away while crying hard. The guy went home and his father told him that he's going to bangkok glass, some kind of football thing. He had this book, the book where he put everything of the girl photo inside. Photo, what happened, what she did and everything. He went to her house and left it outside her house. The girl was crying in her room, and she flew off to USA to study as well as to stay with her father. 9years later, she and the guy came back. They both was very famous, they got in to the teebee program. Actually it was only the girl, but then the guy gave her a surprise. So they met after so long, the people ask: So, 9years pass. So long never see each other, do your have anything to ask or say? The guy: Actually, this wasn't my button. I think is other guy who dropped it. The girl: Oh. The person: So, do you have anything to ask? The girl: Er, actually. Er, are you married? The guy: Er, I. Actually I'm, I. Er. Actually, I'm waiting for. A girl to come back from USA. *smiles. The girl: *Smile, cry. And that's the end. A very sweet love story right? At the middle part was quite sad, and I cried a few times. If only Singapore has this kind of love story. Not in movie, but in real life. If only Singapore was like Thailand. If only.. I cried and think of you. I always thought I've got over you, I thought I cried a river, build a bridge and finally got over it. I thought you are not exist in my dictionary anymore. I thought it was Keith. I thought, I thought. But then, I was wrong. Totally wrong, those mindset was only to act like I'm over you. Just to let you and everyone know im happy without you. Maybe, just maybe. I really got too much, I really cannot endure anymore. Maybe, just maybe. I'm feeling too lonely and thought Keith was the one. I don't know, I'm in a mess now. I really don't know what to do. The only thing I hate in love storys, is to know that I ain't one of them. And I'll never be one. Cause, there's no fucking true love in Singapore. Maybe in movie, maybe in other countries. But just not in real life, not in Singapore. I swear my heart was damn painful, I swear I had enough. And, I swear. I don't know what to do .. :'(