I thought i was getting better, everyone thought i was getting better; but the truth is, i just got better at hiding it. 

it's so hurtful when i knew u blocked me, i tried so hard. yet u could say forget and u forgot. so easy. i wonder how u do it. maybe all those memories that we had meant nothing to you, maybe i meant nothing at all. i was wrong from the start.

i always say how much i hate you, how much you did to hurt me and stuff. but my heart isn't thinking what my mouth says. i always say i'm giving up on you, i'm getting over you, i don't love you. i wish it was easy to do it like as it says. i wish i never met you. i wish i never had anything with you. i wish i never love you. i wish i could forget about you. i wish ...... i was dead.