it have been 7 days since we both last talked. 25 days since you left me. its raining heavily now. nights are already very hard to get through, now nights like this are even harder. i still do miss you alot. sometimes i really wonder what went wrong. it's me whose being too paranoid, or you being too unfaithful. idk, all i know is i wish you were here. i miss everything we had before. those nights where we just lie on bed together and cuddle real tight. and when i can't fall asleep you'll talk to me, tell me stories and talk about us. you will hug me even tighter and pat me to sleep. yet i would force you to stay awake with me, i would force you to kiss me on my forehead and say "goodnight i love you." rememeber?and when you fall asleep before me, i would just stare at you sleeping and play with your face. i miss all these nights. sometime, i really wish some nights lasted forever. i hate what i'm going through now. missing you yet having to pretend like i'm totally fine. sigh, save me from me please. i can't deal with it anymore. let time rewind to things that were still perfect, or just let me forget all this. please i beg you.